Its been sometime since ive blogged, but ive returned to my safe heaven. My ward, is the most comfortable place i have in the hospital cause i know the people there and i noe almost everything. 3 weeks more to the end of PRCP. I really cant wait for it to end. Im planning a trip to australia for 2 weeks. Sathish mite be coming along. Then to KL.
omg i really cant wait!
The other day some friends and i were talking about women in general and some men who just do not have much respect for women on the whole. We were jus figuring out why and what makes them think likewise when we stumbled upon the topic abt porn. To me thats the major cause. Women submitting themselves to men to be treated like 'slaves' and then after to be put on a website to be watched by thousands of men. And the way they have sex, or so they call it, its practically animalistic! I feel more disgusted than turned on. If these women were doing it for acceptance or something i would never believe it. They are well endowed, pretty (some even gorgeous) and definately do not have to subject themselves to such to gain fame (i dnt think its much of a fortune). They could easily get men if they want. They treat themself like this, it is almost impossible to ignore the fact that they let the men treat them like meat and the cheapest thing around. Plus some of them do reanacting scenes and costume roles. Its ubsurd! I decided that ill visit these sites occasionally for only and purly 2 reasons.
1. I pity these women who BARE it all the least i can do it to appreciate 'body art' and give them 'bussiness'
2. When i feel low about myself and need some cheering up, these women do jus that, cause i am so much better than them! I have a load more self respect and brains not to do such shit!
Im planning a small suprise for sathish and i hope it goes through. I wonder if he is planning anything for valentines day.. hmmm... owh yea... and ruth is such a doll... i must really find someon for her...
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Sunday, January 18, 2009
The sundays
my sunday is pretty standard, i dnt go out. Sleep till 10. 1130 to 1230 piano class. But today was a bit different. I could take the unbearable heat after bringing my dog for a walk that i decided to go for a swim at downtown. my sister followed me. It felt good to take a dip. Cool water and nice sun. I closed my eyes to envision myself far away from work and stresses of life.
Ytd was great. Went to east coast park with sathish. Drove there and took our time to do everything. With a car it jus seems more relaxed. You dnt have to rush for a bus or calculate how long would it take me to get home in a train. We cycled till almost the end. Then sat down to enjoy the breeze and sea. It was great. A thought ran through my mind" this scene was like came out of a fairytale or movie". I prayed this movie would have a good ending.
Sathish and i we have this thing that we do. Since we've know each other we always would call before we slept and when we awake. I usually sleep first so i would call to say good night and i love u. In the morning i usually wake up first so as to not disturb him i would msg good morning. On a weekday, since im at work he would msg good morning. But on a weekend he would call to say "hey, good morning. wad u doing for today?" But this morning it was different. He called in the morning and said "good morning babe. wad u doing for today?" i replied and just before he put down the phone he said "i love u." My stomach did a happy flip and i replied "i love u too." Isnt that he never says it. But usually at night. A small sentence. Im sure he isnt aware of the impact it made. But i smiled the whole day. And spent the rest of the day wishing i could be beside him. You might think im nuts. But its just these simple things that make u appreciate love and life. Its going on 19 months since we got together and yet everytime when we meet the minute i see him i feel shy like people meeting for the first time. The feeling washes over after the 1st minute. Before meeting him i would feel like i would wanna run up to him and hug the crap outta him. But i get shy like a school girl meeting a crush for the first time! Its crazy. But i fall in love with him over and over again everytime i see him.
just one word to discribe this.. Incredible. Only love could make u feel like this
Ytd was great. Went to east coast park with sathish. Drove there and took our time to do everything. With a car it jus seems more relaxed. You dnt have to rush for a bus or calculate how long would it take me to get home in a train. We cycled till almost the end. Then sat down to enjoy the breeze and sea. It was great. A thought ran through my mind" this scene was like came out of a fairytale or movie". I prayed this movie would have a good ending.
Sathish and i we have this thing that we do. Since we've know each other we always would call before we slept and when we awake. I usually sleep first so i would call to say good night and i love u. In the morning i usually wake up first so as to not disturb him i would msg good morning. On a weekday, since im at work he would msg good morning. But on a weekend he would call to say "hey, good morning. wad u doing for today?" But this morning it was different. He called in the morning and said "good morning babe. wad u doing for today?" i replied and just before he put down the phone he said "i love u." My stomach did a happy flip and i replied "i love u too." Isnt that he never says it. But usually at night. A small sentence. Im sure he isnt aware of the impact it made. But i smiled the whole day. And spent the rest of the day wishing i could be beside him. You might think im nuts. But its just these simple things that make u appreciate love and life. Its going on 19 months since we got together and yet everytime when we meet the minute i see him i feel shy like people meeting for the first time. The feeling washes over after the 1st minute. Before meeting him i would feel like i would wanna run up to him and hug the crap outta him. But i get shy like a school girl meeting a crush for the first time! Its crazy. But i fall in love with him over and over again everytime i see him.
just one word to discribe this.. Incredible. Only love could make u feel like this
Friday, January 16, 2009
Ive been practically LIVING in my happy place. Wow for the first time i decide to uphold a resolution and its killing me! Iam trying to keep my anger in. So i escape into my happy place. Ive been practically living there. And i suprises me how much anger and fustration i feel in a day. Sathish keeps asking me why im in my happy place. He know he has done somthing wrong but doesnt know what it is. Its driving him nuts. I feel more relaxed and smile way more now that i keep calming myself down
I wore 3 layer of clothes today in the Operation room. A 3/4 sleeve top, tube and hot shorts under my scrub. Finally i didnt feel cold. Just right. I was in Plastics today. Reading through the various operations the rhinoplasty and gender reassignment caught my eye. My extremely friendly staff nurse explained the procedure. The whole day was spent on a breast lymp nide excision conserving the nipple done by the general surgeons and then they removed the fats from her tummy and put it into ther breast to create mass. I actually got to assist in a d&c. It was great!
My maid her going back to indonesia tommorrow. THe new one is here. I dont know how to relate to her. She doesnt speak much english. Im so going to miss my old maid. :(
Today in the train i was trying to drown myself with the music. But the giggles and squirmming of the couple caught my eye. Standing beside me i could hear everything. His hands around her waist. I could hear him whispering sweet nothings into her ear and they giggled and squrimmed in each others arms. The thing is it was so nice to see such young love and its effervescence. I couldnt help feel like i'd love to be like them. I watched rachel getting married and a line caught my attention, its a good toast for couples,
" To my beloved couple, i wish u hundread of years of life together with joy and love. As for me a hundread minus one day. Because i would love to die knowing that i knew such great and happy people."
Another one was
" U may have Ups and Downs in ur marriage. But if there maybe Ups and Downs, let them be in the bedroom!"
But my all time favourite from hitch, a toast,
" Never lie, steal, cheat or drink. But if you must lie, lie in the arms of the one you love. If you must steal, steal away from bad company. If you must cheat, cheat death. And if you must drink, drink in the moments that take your breath away."
For the people toking cock with me online now heres a quote for each of u!
Sathish:
"People leap, and hope to God they can fly, because otherwise you just drop like a rock, wondering the whole way down "Why in the hell did I jump?" But here I am, falling, and the only one that makes me feel like I can fly is you"
Ruth: Life is not the amount of breaths you take, it's the moments that take your breath away.
I wore 3 layer of clothes today in the Operation room. A 3/4 sleeve top, tube and hot shorts under my scrub. Finally i didnt feel cold. Just right. I was in Plastics today. Reading through the various operations the rhinoplasty and gender reassignment caught my eye. My extremely friendly staff nurse explained the procedure. The whole day was spent on a breast lymp nide excision conserving the nipple done by the general surgeons and then they removed the fats from her tummy and put it into ther breast to create mass. I actually got to assist in a d&c. It was great!
My maid her going back to indonesia tommorrow. THe new one is here. I dont know how to relate to her. She doesnt speak much english. Im so going to miss my old maid. :(
Today in the train i was trying to drown myself with the music. But the giggles and squirmming of the couple caught my eye. Standing beside me i could hear everything. His hands around her waist. I could hear him whispering sweet nothings into her ear and they giggled and squrimmed in each others arms. The thing is it was so nice to see such young love and its effervescence. I couldnt help feel like i'd love to be like them. I watched rachel getting married and a line caught my attention, its a good toast for couples,
" To my beloved couple, i wish u hundread of years of life together with joy and love. As for me a hundread minus one day. Because i would love to die knowing that i knew such great and happy people."
Another one was
" U may have Ups and Downs in ur marriage. But if there maybe Ups and Downs, let them be in the bedroom!"
But my all time favourite from hitch, a toast,
" Never lie, steal, cheat or drink. But if you must lie, lie in the arms of the one you love. If you must steal, steal away from bad company. If you must cheat, cheat death. And if you must drink, drink in the moments that take your breath away."
For the people toking cock with me online now heres a quote for each of u!
Sathish:
"People leap, and hope to God they can fly, because otherwise you just drop like a rock, wondering the whole way down "Why in the hell did I jump?" But here I am, falling, and the only one that makes me feel like I can fly is you"
Ruth: Life is not the amount of breaths you take, it's the moments that take your breath away.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Artic
Its been 3 days since i said OT is just great! It still is... THe people there are rude and crazy but i dont care much for people. But the operation theater is at 17 degrees C. Im clad in my oversized srub cause there arent any small tops anymore and freezing till the bone. I cant feel my fingers and i hardly can speak. It reminds of London only thing no sweater. Im sleeping early to prepare myself of whats to come tommorrow. The Antartica ive resigned myself to, for the love of nursing. Im going to die standing.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Keeping resolutions
I couldnt believe my eyes when i started at sathish yesterday.. The boy was driving a proper car! Pretty well i should say. I felt good to sit beside him. Something felt real for once. Well then it went downhill a bit when i couldnt give proper instructions back to my place. Well forgive me if i dnt know ECP from PIE. I have horrible map reading skills to match the left and right differenciating! I ususally would get irritated and start a fight. But since New years ive resoluted not to fight. SO whenever i feel mad or irriated i close my eyes and go into my happy place. Its population 3, Asheta, me and i. hahaha.. Its the only way to keep my resolution.
Yet it drives him nuts when i go into my happy place and dnt speak my mind. Its hilarious.
Like today he told me last night he could meet up. But then changed his mind at 11+ cause he wants to go jogging/ gym. So it was fine.. But when i was in Op theater i get an sms at 2+ from him. "im going out with my frens". In the operating theater i centered myself and focused on the task at hand. Lets leave that..
Talking about operation theater, It was my first day. Very interesting! Though the smell of the diatermy was overpowering, it was an exhilarating expirience. My second choice is OT. Besides the complains from my classmates about the cold, i secretly wish i could work there.
I always thought the blue uni students were rather irritating and brainless but Ruth has proven otherwise. hahahaa.. Btw she jus read my first entry and i have to be true to our conversation online so ill say this, I love Nat Joe Pak. hahaha.. My humps are positioned perfectly- this line has been approved my Ruth..
Yet it drives him nuts when i go into my happy place and dnt speak my mind. Its hilarious.
Like today he told me last night he could meet up. But then changed his mind at 11+ cause he wants to go jogging/ gym. So it was fine.. But when i was in Op theater i get an sms at 2+ from him. "im going out with my frens". In the operating theater i centered myself and focused on the task at hand. Lets leave that..
Talking about operation theater, It was my first day. Very interesting! Though the smell of the diatermy was overpowering, it was an exhilarating expirience. My second choice is OT. Besides the complains from my classmates about the cold, i secretly wish i could work there.
I always thought the blue uni students were rather irritating and brainless but Ruth has proven otherwise. hahahaa.. Btw she jus read my first entry and i have to be true to our conversation online so ill say this, I love Nat Joe Pak. hahaha.. My humps are positioned perfectly- this line has been approved my Ruth..
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Introduction
Well its been sometime since i had a blog. Actually i never really had one. So after much discussion my the web address and blog title with sathish we have come to a decision as such. My name is Asheta. Im 20 this year. A gemini, born on 14th june. My life revolves around 4 things. Work, family, Friends and my love, Sathish.
I have an extremely loving family ,a younger brother and sister. Bro is in sec 3 and Sis is the smarty pants of the family in temask jc yr 2. Included to the family would be my beloved jack russel terrior Aeshan. He is 2 years old.
Work, im a student nurse. Doing my atttachment for 16weeks. Ive got 6 weeks more to go. Im in the same ward as one of my besties Dhaniya. We have unimaginable fun! We end on febuary 19th. I cant wait! Then it would be graduation baby!!
Friends, my two besties Taz and Dhaniya. Taz is a dancer, passionate one. Her dance and life stories never fail to amuse me. Dhaniya is the all funny and.... ok loss for words. She loves to dress me up. A diva in her own rights. We talk alike, dress almost alike and do things alike. One thing about my two besties they have stories, true life stories that spices up my life. Taz's life is a kal ho na ho sequel. Dhaniya's is a kushi prequel and sequel. Hahahaha. I practically live my life through these two. Ive known them for 3 years and counting.
Sathish, my boyfriend. We got together on 21st may 2007. Very much in love. We met in poly and have been together every since. Our relationship isnt temporary. Its for the keeps. He means the world to me. We have so much in common! I love him to bits. If i could peek into the future i know for sure that it has his name written all over it!
Well its the begining of the blog. The intro has jus been written.
I have an extremely loving family ,a younger brother and sister. Bro is in sec 3 and Sis is the smarty pants of the family in temask jc yr 2. Included to the family would be my beloved jack russel terrior Aeshan. He is 2 years old.
Work, im a student nurse. Doing my atttachment for 16weeks. Ive got 6 weeks more to go. Im in the same ward as one of my besties Dhaniya. We have unimaginable fun! We end on febuary 19th. I cant wait! Then it would be graduation baby!!
Friends, my two besties Taz and Dhaniya. Taz is a dancer, passionate one. Her dance and life stories never fail to amuse me. Dhaniya is the all funny and.... ok loss for words. She loves to dress me up. A diva in her own rights. We talk alike, dress almost alike and do things alike. One thing about my two besties they have stories, true life stories that spices up my life. Taz's life is a kal ho na ho sequel. Dhaniya's is a kushi prequel and sequel. Hahahaha. I practically live my life through these two. Ive known them for 3 years and counting.
Sathish, my boyfriend. We got together on 21st may 2007. Very much in love. We met in poly and have been together every since. Our relationship isnt temporary. Its for the keeps. He means the world to me. We have so much in common! I love him to bits. If i could peek into the future i know for sure that it has his name written all over it!
Well its the begining of the blog. The intro has jus been written.
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